About the Sickness

Last week I posted about a sickness that is not an illness. On Saturday, not only did I feel a weight had been lifted from me, the sickness mysteriously disappeared too. Well, it’s not that mysterious, I was certain it would no longer exist once the first year mark was behind me. It feels good to be able to breath again without pain and not feel nauseous all the time.

The next hurdle will be placing the ashes, but more on that later.


4 thoughts on “About the Sickness

  1. I’m so glad to read this. Stress and anticipation can do so much more than just make you feel exhausted, fluish and nauseous. Serious stress can cause long-term health problems that nobody needs. I think about you often, and read here too. It’s so promising to see that you feel like you’ve turned a significant corner and feel the weight lifted a bit, and healthier. That’s a step in the right direction. There will always be some bad days, but the good days when you feel well are stepping stones towards renewed physical and mental health. Good for you, Karen. My heart and thoughts are with you and your family. -Heather

  2. Thank you, Heather. I feel as if I’m taking more frequent steps in the right direction now and that is a good feeling. However, I know I’ll have ups and downs, but I feel I’m now able to cope with them.

  3. First and foremost – I am so VERY sorry for your loss. I was looking up information, to try to continue to help 2 of my four children – one who is 17 – is straying, rebelling and “living his own life” – who I am concerned with his drug use, extent of rebellion, choice and change of friends – the list goes on – we are getting help – if only he will accept the help and see that there is so much more to life and it can be enjoyed without a fog of pot smoke around. The other son who I know is depressed, even if just mildly, will not seek help as he says he can handle it on his own. He has a friend who is abusing ecstasy – very nice girl, smart, driven – has goals and dreams. I keep thinking – “do they know what they are doing? Don’t they get it when they read or hear about the dangers, the deaths – the unnecessary risk they put themselves at?” He also has another friend who is battling severe depression and is currently hospitalized. He tries so hard to help them. I worry that he thinks too much about it – as he seems more down when he does. I try to help him to be pro-active in her plight, instead of every interaction being a downer – not to ignore the facts – but also not to dwell. He does continue to talk openly to me about things – for that I am grateful. I can only hope and pray with time, prayer and perserverence, that these two young, wonderful boys of mine – will find their way with the guidance, support and love we give them.

    I cannot even imagine the loss of one of my children.

    Like I started to say – I was looking up information and ran across your sight. I was extremely moved by this sight for your son and family. I cannot express the many things going through my mind as I read different parts of your sight. I am again, so sorry for your loss.

    I truly wish you the best during these very rough times. I will say a prayer for you and your family.



  4. Carol, it sounds like you are doing all you can to keep your sons safe. I pray and hope that they do not keep you at arms length and they accept the help you suggest. I wish your family peace and safety in the future.

    Thank you for the nice words about this site too. When we first lost Barry, this site was the only thing I was interested in. It helped me through the hardest time of my life and now I hope the words found here will help others too.

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