Why I haven’t…

…updated the My Son category (now changed to “Barry’s Life”).

I wrote the first post on Barry’s birthday, but I haven’t written another post since. Why? It’s heart breaking to go through the photos and write about Barry’s life. I find it difficult to think in a straight line, and I find my memories coming and going so fast it’s frightening. Putting this aside, I must admit that Barry’s death and what he will miss in the future comes to my mind first. These thoughts always manage to upset me more than anything.

So…for now…I will try to find contentment in my memories, without stirring up everything else to try and write those posts. This doesn’t mean that I won’t be writing posts for My Son, because I will. Those posts will mean more to me than all the others. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I’m not able to write them yet. It’s too soon. But I plan to at least write another post on the 18th of this month, which will be the three month mark.

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